Omg, reading back at all those post made me few so stupid.
Scolding teachers and like doing all the bad things. Haha, immature.
Delete delete delete.
Now, my whole blog is about YOU.
From looking at you from far, admiring you and your smile.
We became friends.
I tried so hard.
I was together with you.
We were separated.
I deleted all the bad posts. Those that made you sad. Those that cause us to separate.
I regret posting all those stupid post.
I regret not letting you know how much you mean to me.
I regret not tell you everything i want to tell you.
I regret alot of things dear.
If there is ever a chance that you will listen to me, please let me say my piece.
I have so much to say.
I love you so much even though its hard when you dont give me a chance.
I'll try my best i can.
I'll prove everything i can to you.
I hope to love you.
If one day you disappear, i will find you.
Nights.

I should stop asking why and start wondering how.
How to make you dislike/hate me lesser.
Im willing to do anything.
But if you're not willing to give me any chances, i can do nothing about it.
It sucks when you're willing to pay any price for something but the owner just dont wanna sell it. There goes everything.
But today i decided that so long as you knows that i will always be here for you doing anything to see your smile, i will be glad and smileoways.
This is a promise.
okok? :| YESSS.

Gems tomorrow! Must be fun!
"Which way are you going? The left one where there is nothing right? Or the right one, where there is nothing left?"
I would choose hmmmmmmmmmmm. The right one.
Since i've decided to do this.
Tomorrow olevels.
Should i sms you?
Why you always put me in such a position?!
Makes me dont know what to do.
How?
Im stuck, cant move backwards and cant move forward.
So long as i believe one day things will get better, i wont move an inch from where i am now, i will wait till the day never comes.
Im the man that cant be moved. Remember.
Im here, always here.
Remember.
Nights.

There's only so much i can do if you keep casting me away and pouring cold water on me.
If only you could hear me out.
Im prepared to risk it all.
I need my chance and im willing to wait.
I need to know what you're thinking man!:(
Ok nights, slp tomorrow busy day, no gym:S

Today, I woke up thinking "Ah, must be a dream again. Sians"
Lol. It wasnt, i did get what i wanted, just that its in a worst case scenario only.
But i dont mind, i'll take it as a lesson learned.
Although it wasnt what i wanted to see.
Not even close. And I wasnt prepared for it.
The darts just come speeding straight through my hearts. It nearly got me but on second thoughts, if you never failed, you never lived.
So i will not take this as a failure, more like a lesson.
I guess i should just take it slowly, step by step.
I will believe in everything you once believed.
If i can choose anything in the world, i'll choose to be on the side of you.
Dont cast me away pls.
So actually i got to see you but with a very bad price to pay.
I dont mind.
Im happy if you're happy.
I dont want it to be too late to turn everything around.
"I just don't love you no more" Dont do this to me.
I know maybe i'm not the kind of guy you look for but there is time for me to adjust.
Why cant you see that im changing?
You can treat me coldly. But you must not stop me.
If you feel what i did today was a stupid mistake.
Let it be the last mistake ever.
I will be cautious.
Promised to myself.
Nights.

Can my dream today be about knowing what flavour to get?
I been looking like so many freaking places already!
From lot to timah to jurong to imm to yew tee. LOL.
All the same few flavour.
:(
There's always a price to pay for something you want.
If i asked to meet within the next few days, its olevel period, most probably you will say 'No'.
This will totally pull down my confidence, i wont have the courage to ever ask again in the future and i dont want that!
But i really want to meet you.
So how?
Live or die.
2 Possibility.
Tomorrow i will decide which road to take.
Im going to bed. Nights.
Im worn out :( And im gaining mass. Good thing.

I give you all my luck, yizhen! hahaha.

I just wish you know i much i wish to see you.
If its last time, i would be ANGRY if i didnt see you for a week.
Now im just purely SAD.
I dont know how can i be angry missing you last time.
:C

imissyoulehs.how.

Heys.
Bad news, i lost my wallet.
Photos that have been with me for a WHOLE YEAR is gone.
My passes are gone.
My bro's ez link also gone!:(
Why why why why why?!
:(
Im so sad.
But nevermind ba.
Got to take better care of my things next time lo.
Tomorrow is the start of school. Too bad its not secondary school.
 I gooing to get my pay from toppan early in the morning!
Can i not go? so lazy.

I went to read your 1st post today!
:D
I remembered i was the first few person to know about your blog!:D
Cause i was always looking out to things related to you.
And i guess thats why.
And guess what, you called me Wilson then you gave me a name, Wilson- Detective L.
And you remember why you called me that? Its because it seemed that i know alot about you and you thought that im like Detective L, know about everyone, smart.
Nope, i only know about you.
From so Feb 08 i saw you i started looking out for everything related to you, you know that?
I've never told you before.
From Detective L, we got closer, i became Onionhead"Dig nose"
Hahahha! Do you remember? Omg.:D
Your 18th post.
mm.. back to blogging today, damn bored ._. mm.. ya, didnt see Wilson today >< hahas.
Aw. This is making me want to cry.
I didnt know you actually cared.
When we were still friends.
Hey, i have to do something.
I have to let you know that im still here waiting.
I must do something to keep in contact with you.
I dont ever want you to forget me because i wont ever forget you.
14 Feb 2009.
I wanted to look for you, holding the tower i got for you in my hands.
I really had the rush to look for you.
But i dont want you to be unhappy when you see me.
You once asked me never to look you up again.
I was so confused.
I want to look for you but im afraid.
Afraid that you'll be unhappy, i've given you enough unhappiness.
I dont want to ever make you unhappy again.
So i can only ask your goodfriend to pass it to you, i really didnt expect your reaction to be a bad one..
I was told you were unhappy when you recieved the towel.
:(
So i promised myself to look out for you and avoid you if you were going to see me.
I looked at your backview from far when u got down from the bus 302.
Walking back home. I was looking at you.
I dont want to sound like a stalker. I was there and thought, well can try my luck to look for you.
I really want to know what your reaction will be if you see me.
But again, i dont dare to take the risk.
On graduation day.
I didnt expect to see you at all..
I was there to see you graduate like you looked at me last year.
I dont know if im lucky or unlucky to see you.
All i know is im really glad you smiled.
如果可以,我奋不顾身的找回你.
I want to look for you this time.

LOL.
Crazy dream i has!
The most retarded dream! hahaha.
Guess what?
It was about you! LOL.
You were married. :s
And you got a baby!
After we didnt meet for a year or two only, you got married and a baby! Woots!
You were probably around 19.
And the baby was so so so cute.
Lol.
At least you allowed me to hold the baby, it felt real, the weight, the smile and the saliva!
Crazy dream.
But in the dream i was happy, for you.
Although i had a sad ending in my dream haha.
Its only a silly dream after all.
:S

I found the bumper stickers we sent each other last time! Hahaha.
Awww.
:D

Its so funny huh.
Our score for The Reason To End A Relationship was 97% Alike.
Lol. And we did broke up in the end. Well. Haha.
I would like to admit. I was over possessive back then. And i was paranoid. You were so perfect i was afraid that others might like you too.
Paranoid. ><
Man, you still could bear with me. Power. I always acted like a freak... ><
Lol.
Blame myself for this lo.
You have a way too cute smile.
I love you this Much From: Wilson Quek
Hahaa, i found out this "Precious Moment we sent each other" Aw.
I know maybe you wont get the "Awwww" feeling la, haha.
I cant possibly blame you. It has been one whole year already. Lol.
Do you ever miss me? :P
Haha.
I guess i will not have the answer.
But nevermind. All it matters is i know i missed you like crazy.
I once thought that i wont need you to love me back if i really love you, bullllshit.
I need your love too. Haha.
Rainy days really remind me of you.
The time we spent in the rain was probably less than 10mins but its a strong memories and feeling.
When we were walking to school, it started raining, we were kinda running for the gate, you know actually i would love to spend time in the rain, i hope the school were not so close ><
We laughed our ass off cause of our funny hair, do you remember? It was only less than 1min. But it was a very memorable moment.
There was once when you went for tuition.
It rained also, i wanted to study at mac to wait for your tuition to end, i had this A4 size file with me, we used it to cover our heads from the rain. Haha.
2Onionheads under a small file.
Awwww.
Alrights, things wont happen because you want them to.

Watched 不能说的秘密 today.
It was so amazing.
And it was so touching.
And the ending was cool, the guy got to be with the girl but he had to give up where he was living to go back to 20years back to be with the girl.
I would have done that too.
Aw. Just pity his father. >< And another girl that loves him.
Overall i liked the show, hahaha, i always forget to watch it but today i made up my mind to watch it before i go anywhere.

你会回来吗?

Goodnights!

Man, mr ng cant make it today!
So meaning i have to go tomorrow and from what i know today is the last day of sch for the sec4.
:(:(
Aw.
Guess you will be mugging so hard at home.
Should i wish you all the best for o levels?
I dont want to irritate you.
Thats why i dont dare to even use my own number to wish you happy birthday!
I want you happy happy. haha.
LOL.
Today i sold ice cream! Meet many friendly buyers.
We sold $180+ and earned ourselves some icecream and $14 bucks each!LOL.



When will i see you again? :(
And i hope you hate me lesser now.
Feelings will never fade. Not totally at least.
:D
Goodnight!
Tomorrow will be a busy day!:D

It's Wednesday!
Afterwards im going to go to sch.
I meant Twss.
To meet Mr ng to get my protein powder!:D
Finally.
Once i have the powder, im going to visit gym as often as possible!
I need to get some height and muscle!:D hahaha.
I look forward to see you when i go back school.
Haha, dont believe in fate.
After watching the show, 500 Days Of Summer, dont actually believe in fate, you have to make it happen, dont depend on fate.
Aw i feel like im a stalker. ><
I visit your and your sis's blog more often than any other website. LOL.
Just hoping to find some news on you.
So yeah your sis watched the movie so i decided to watch it too. :x
Hahaha.
Oh man, i think you're gonna freak out if you know abt this. :S
Hmm, hurtful words had been said.
We know very well that hurtful words cant be taken back. What about forgetting them?
It can be forgotten.
I dont care what you once said to me, those hurtful things.
I've forgotten them all.
To me you're still the girl that will never never scold bad words under whatever situation.
You're a brave girl.
You're a calm girl. (Not when you talk about Bigbang though)
AHAHAH!
Twilight new moon will be out soon, my birthday wish is to watch it with you! LOL!
Well, still long to my birthday, will i hear from you? ><
LOL.
Hmmmmmm.
GymGymGym!
I feel like cutting botak! Start afresh! Lol.
But not anytime soon cause i got a bum on my head!:(
Knocked into the tree, didnt know i was so tall! HAHAHA.
Goodnight world!

Aw man, i forgot my dinner!
Wtb. Lol.
Now my stomach is growling.
And im lazy to go downstairs to 7-11 :S
Aw, got to bear with it.
Oh jianhui talked to me on msn today, total shock.
Im sorry if i bullied you before! lol.

Dear boo.
You and i are like having a race.
You ran ahead now because i made some silly mistake.
Im lagging behind. But i can see you running, all this time while i was behind you trying to catch up.
I looked at how you run and learn from my mistake.
I need to ensure that if one day i ever catch up with you, im not gonna make silly mistakes and let you run ahead of me ever again.
Please slow down, you're hard to catch up.
><

Do you realised how much you changed? Haha, not in a bad way actually.
Just more mature i guess.
I dont like it when people tell me you're mature, it just brings me down, cause i know im still childish:x
Heh. Lol.
O level coming! Mug hard, rest well. Pray for you. Haha.
Aw, hungry.

Rotting at home is no fun!
Tired tired tired. The only place i go now is only gym.
Waiting for my pay to come :S
I have things i want to get!:D
Heehe.
Nothing much to post abt anyways, just a simple day gone by.
There got to be something in you i cant forget.
Someone got to tell me what to do man!
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Today i saw your photo in FB, its took during lesson time, you look so beautiful!
Lol.
Cheers for you!
Nights!

Another day, 1 week of holidays!
Hmm, how much time do i have...
Same routine everyday? Dont really have one.
Im so bored.
Wow, tricia found out abt my blog. How? 0.0
How i wished you were the one that found out abt my blog. Haha.:x
Jobless, just waiting for pay.
Hais hais hais.
I should start thinking less.
If not i will go crazy! Lol.
Whats the point of going yewtee to walk walk?
As if i'm going to bump into you!
Lol. So not possible.
I want to be there to see you, meet you. Not to have a small chance of bumping into you lol!
Hahaha.
Awww. I miss you!><
Someone please give me some update on you! :(
If it's raining tonight, will you be slping well?
:D
I hope so.
Why are you so unforgettable?
Good question. Haha.
Nights!
Smileoways! *Do you still remember what you always say?*
I do.

Today i went for beancurd with my friend, out of a sudden, i wanted to go near you, so i went to yewtee! LOL. What a joke.
Just wanna go there, i dont know why also.
And yeah, i went there. :)
Oh yeah, i got sacked. No more work. Today is the last day, in another 4hours.
Lol.
I wished to talk to you so much, you know?:C
Alright, sleeping time.
Another day another miss.

Boooo!
My parents are fighting again!:(
Over small things!
Its my brother's birthday. Happy birthday to you!
From morning to night, im always thinking of you, i dont know how to not think of you, im serious and i cant help it.
Songs sang by bigbang makes me think of you.
The way i walk makes me miss walking with you.
Looking at couples make me want to be with you.
Why is every little think linked to you?
I tried hard not to.
Its not i dont want to think abt you or what but im always suffering, missing you so badly. Would you ever understand?
I would think of the times we fought because of small little things, how much i wished i had 5minutes to talk to you.
What used to be so good.
I really want to shout out loud. Charlyn Chua. I miss you. I dont dare to ask for more frankly speaking, everything i do i look forward to being with you.
When i work, my mind is occupied with you in my mind, i know people say it takes time to forget but not for me, im looking forward to Dec or Nov. I want to meet you, talk to you, ask for your forgiveness.
Be with you.
I shouldnt hold too much hope now.
Who knows.
I will try.
I hate this feeling. Living with the greatest regret of my life.
I cannot imagine the day when you moved house, changed number, disappear.
I would be so upset.
I will look for you, i know its not possible, but i will.
Im gonna treat you better. Look at me please.
I ask for a chance.
For me to prove my love to you, mushy?
Up to you. Every night the same memories come back to haunt me, if i have a wish, i would wish to be with you, if nt possible, i would wish to forget you.
Can you believe i wish to forget you? I cant myself.
But if i dont forget you, i will live in pain, suffering.
The best would to be with you of course.
Please dont ever disappear. :(
I dont know what im gonna say sound stupid or what but i will become a good man, with a good job, maybe then i will look for you.
Sound stupid? I dont think so!
If i can ever delicate a song to you, let this be the one.

Stay
Bigbang

Can you feel me now
Take a deep breath and let me explain
All the pain that's been wreckin my brain
Gettin so close to goin' insane
And see you standing there
And the feelin' never gonna be the same
seems like we missed the whole damn train
Blame is all we have for us

And I can let in get in the way
Even if the love is the clstly price to pay
Lookin' back life love was the game of cliche
Gotta move away sacrifice my heart and let you breath again baby girl

Everything is too late now,
The way she never spoke at times,
That our relationship was becoming solitary,
Now that I'm alone

Honestly...
Her being by my side was something I thought was natural,
The mail I sent; User unknown

In the empty closet,
The promise ring we chose together for her birthday,
Lays in the corner

Before the door closes, baby please don't go away,
I regret not expressing my feelings, what you to say,
Although I come to regret now, I know it's late,
There is nobody who can take her place,
I want you to stay, want you to stay

The last words, yes,
They were 'Thanks' rather than 'Take care'
It shows it's the end, getting over me

It's the proof that I could not give what she wanted,
The key of the mail box, End of the story

The night will come in the room I'm alone in,
I can't see the lady who would be smiling in pictures

There will be no chance that I can forget you,
Baby please don't fade away,
You won't erase all day,
Want you to stay,
Because it makes me this sad, I know it's late
Her existence which I had to keep,
I want you to stay, want you to stay

Do you still feel anything for me? :(
Sleepwell and sleeptight. Tomorrow will be another day, missing you.

Today, i miss you so much again.
Work was really really bad,all i can think of is you, you are my motivation.
Rock on.
4 more days and im free from what used to be a heaven, now hell, my workplace.
I used to work hard, up to 15hours a day. I had the motivations then, when ur smses come, im wide awake.
Not anymore cause we dont sms each other anymore:(
Sad case.
How i wished i could be by your side accompanying you mug.
Well, even if i cant be practically by your side, i can be at home waking up earlier than usual just to mug with you, like the old times, it was just so great, isn't it?
Hmm, how will you react if you know im still in love with you, you always make me wonder!
Answering a non-answerable question is impossible, therefore i do nt have the answer :(
I dream and dream that we went back together. Its just a dream i always remind myself.
Someday i hope my dream will come true.
I really wish you can give me a chance to prove myself and to you, i can be a good guy.
And i want to be with you, a million time i can say this but can you hear me?
Almost 365days have passed, you now have your friends. I have mine, but i still love you, miss you everyday.
Do you even miss me once in awhile?
><
I hope you do because i believe you will.
Yeah, i have to slp if nt i would be dozing off while working tmr:(
Boo, i hope you can feel this, i dont mind waiting but i really need some motivation.
Your smses are all the motivation in me.
Oh yeah, you know i still have the smses we once sent each other? :) Thats the good news, the bad news is i did not use the phone anymore, i dont wan to damage it BUT BUT BUT the batteries expanded and i cant on the phone anymore!!!! :(
Lucky its only the battery.
I will buy a new one, just to view our smses.:)
I miss the times.
I would never let that phone that i spent my happiest days with end up in nothing.
Trust me. I will try anything.
<3
You were always the one.
With love, Wilson.

Been so long since i last posted and i didnt allow anyone to view my blog so yeah, i guess now no one will ever know. Haha. Anyways, just an update.
Graduation day. I swear i didnt expect to see you there. Nono,i mean i always wanted to see you, yes. But i didnt know you will sit right behind me. Do you know how happy i was when you smiled at me? I swear i wont be that happy even if i scored a 4 in my GPA.
Girl, i cant get over you, and i think you know it well. It has always been my wish to see your smile. Like the old days.
So yeah, congrats to you, you graduated, still remember very clearly, last yr you were the one standing at the stage passing the cert to the teacher. So cute. Haha. This yr, you were up there. I am indeed very happy for you, your smile, your eyes, your hair. Its all magical! Lol. I know im sounding abit dumb here but you know, thats true.
From the moment i know you were gonna sit right behind me, i know this is the only chance for me to look clearly at you, for once.
Yes, i know you caught me peeping at you a dozen times, but please, you know me. And you are clear that i like looking into your eyes, just that this isnt like the old times, i cant look and stare at you anymore. However, i really do wished i can.
At the moment, how much i wished i was transparent and you would not be able to see me, i could look at you and your smile all day long.
Im glad i was able to look at you at least for a minute.
Really glad.
Also i got to hear that voice. Remember you once asked me what kind of voice i liked? You did asked me in case you forgotten. You thought that i would like Lara's voice. Its sweet, cute and whatsoever.
Nope, i dont, i told you i liked your voice the most but you didnt believe me! Angry angry! haha.
I meant it.
I even remembered i was at lot one when you asked! Haha.
So much time i wished to spend with you. Well, not bad at least the graduation day was one of the longest moment i saw you, heard your voice and laughter.
I shall not be greedy. Im delighted.
Its always sad to say goodbye. I dont want to. But well, we have to go, but im really happy you waved your hand at me.
This whole year, i wanted to see you so much, looking at EVERY 302 that passes by. Didnt have any luck doing that.
Twss was the wonderful place. I saw you there for maybe a few minutes.
I dont know how you feel towards me now but i miss you. Alot. Alot. Alot.
I told my friends all abt you, i am so proud of you, your everything, well i know i am not anyone to you now and i shouldnt treat it like im with you. But i really wished that we could be together again. My friends know very well it was me and my useless stupid brain that wasnt functioning very well at that time that caused all this today.
Now im here typing all this. Can you feel it?
I know i must not hold too much hope. But i know i cannot stop having hopes.
Its just me and my heart fighting each other. Places that i want to bring you to, things i want to do with you. I even want to race you in daytona! Haha, i know its funny, i wanna play badminton with you, i wanna play basketball with you, go to gym with you, swim with you, jog with you, celebrate with you, talking to you, lighting the candles with you and mostly be with you.
This is call greedy. Haha, it has been so long, cant blame me for being greedy yeah? :x
Let this be a lil diary, actually i must admit i wished you would read this. Well again, im holding on to that lil hope. *Box myself*
Well, i cannot help myself again to say i WAS stupid. Why was i always like that in the past? Beats me too.
Now i think back, things could be so good. I was the one. *Box myself x100*
Feels like banging the wall sometimes. Haha, i was full of badwords, full of crap and violent. Although obviously not towards you, but still i was wrong. WRONG.
I will never never ever do anything violent towards you la! You know me. If i ever do that, kill me! LOL. Hurt the one you love, you kill yourself.
I am always wondering what will you be doing at this moment. I know you're sleeping! But.. Nevermind, just wondering what you were doing before you went to bed. O levels are coming, i know you are gonna mug so hard! :( im not being stupid here but i hope you would give yourself a break once in a while. Let go of studies, enjoy yourself.
Oh yeah! One more wish, i hope to watch MV from BB with you, so much, they are cool people:P
I know you love to watch them, last time i was retarded. Haha, i dont know whats wrong with korean singer, why did i hated them so much? :x
Not anymore, maybe we could even sing korean songs together! LOL! Although i would suck, i know it would be fun and nice hearing you sing them! Oh you once promised to sing for me too :(
Haha!
Too bad for me. BOOOOOOOOO! :(
So yeah i been thinking abt you lately (actually for the past 1 whole yr!) LOL.
And hi-5! i remembered you like F1 races and of cus L.Hamilton! :D
Heehee.

Please i would never forget anything abt you, ask me, i remembered them all.
And sadly, you will go to NP and mass comm after olvls.
This is a very very sad thing for me:(
I will have 0.01% chance of seeing you:S

Boooo again for me. Lols.

Wow, its mid-autum! And i smsed you!:D *Cheer* for the courage:P
And you replied! *Cheer* for i dont know, im happy. Lol.
Too bad this yr we didnt light any candle together. But hey, i did one for you!:D
Oh btw, my art sucks so errr. yeah, not nice:x But i know you would be glad if you saw it!:D Heehee. I took photos too. HAHA, please do not laugh:P

:D:D:D

Oh my 1000 cranes is not coming up fast!:(
I hope i can pass it to you before DEC.
But its not easy! :(
1Crane takes abt 10mins! :(
I need 10000mins! OMG, I still doing, almost 200 now :( Im slow:(
But i will try my best! My holidays are here, but im working, so i wont have time.
But sat and sun i shall do crane the whole day :D
I wont get bored, i will entertain myself, i know you wont be happy if i do something the whole day and not letting myself have enough space to move abt. Right?
Aw, i played basketball too much last time, even neglected you, wtb man!:S
So dumb!:(
Ok still loading the pictures.. Cool done:D
I really want you to know, i love you as much as last time, even more.
Nt for looks, your character.
Maybe you have changed, i dont know. But it doesnt matter.
Smile like you always do.
With love, Wilson.

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