Monday, October 5, 2009 ; 12:24 AM?
SMILE(:
Been so long since i last posted and i didnt allow anyone to view my blog so yeah, i guess now no one will ever know. Haha. Anyways, just an update.
Graduation day. I swear i didnt expect to see you there. Nono,i mean i always wanted to see you, yes. But i didnt know you will sit right behind me. Do you know how happy i was when you smiled at me? I swear i wont be that happy even if i scored a 4 in my GPA.
Girl, i cant get over you, and i think you know it well. It has always been my wish to see your smile. Like the old days.
So yeah, congrats to you, you graduated, still remember very clearly, last yr you were the one standing at the stage passing the cert to the teacher. So cute. Haha. This yr, you were up there. I am indeed very happy for you, your smile, your eyes, your hair. Its all magical! Lol. I know im sounding abit dumb here but you know, thats true.
From the moment i know you were gonna sit right behind me, i know this is the only chance for me to look clearly at you, for once.
Yes, i know you caught me peeping at you a dozen times, but please, you know me. And you are clear that i like looking into your eyes, just that this isnt like the old times, i cant look and stare at you anymore. However, i really do wished i can.
At the moment, how much i wished i was transparent and you would not be able to see me, i could look at you and your smile all day long.
Im glad i was able to look at you at least for a minute.
Really glad.
Also i got to hear that voice. Remember you once asked me what kind of voice i liked? You did asked me in case you forgotten. You thought that i would like Lara's voice. Its sweet, cute and whatsoever.
Nope, i dont, i told you i liked your voice the most but you didnt believe me! Angry angry! haha.
I meant it.
I even remembered i was at lot one when you asked! Haha.
So much time i wished to spend with you. Well, not bad at least the graduation day was one of the longest moment i saw you, heard your voice and laughter.
I shall not be greedy. Im delighted.
Its always sad to say goodbye. I dont want to. But well, we have to go, but im really happy you waved your hand at me.
This whole year, i wanted to see you so much, looking at EVERY 302 that passes by. Didnt have any luck doing that.
Twss was the wonderful place. I saw you there for maybe a few minutes.
I dont know how you feel towards me now but i miss you. Alot. Alot. Alot.
I told my friends all abt you, i am so proud of you, your everything, well i know i am not anyone to you now and i shouldnt treat it like im with you. But i really wished that we could be together again. My friends know very well it was me and my useless stupid brain that wasnt functioning very well at that time that caused all this today.
Now im here typing all this. Can you feel it?
I know i must not hold too much hope. But i know i cannot stop having hopes.
Its just me and my heart fighting each other. Places that i want to bring you to, things i want to do with you. I even want to race you in daytona! Haha, i know its funny, i wanna play badminton with you, i wanna play basketball with you, go to gym with you, swim with you, jog with you, celebrate with you, talking to you, lighting the candles with you and mostly be with you.
This is call greedy. Haha, it has been so long, cant blame me for being greedy yeah? :x
Let this be a lil diary, actually i must admit i wished you would read this. Well again, im holding on to that lil hope. *Box myself*
Well, i cannot help myself again to say i WAS stupid. Why was i always like that in the past? Beats me too.
Now i think back, things could be so good. I was the one. *Box myself x100*
Feels like banging the wall sometimes. Haha, i was full of badwords, full of crap and violent. Although obviously not towards you, but still i was wrong. WRONG.
I will never never ever do anything violent towards you la! You know me. If i ever do that, kill me! LOL. Hurt the one you love, you kill yourself.
I am always wondering what will you be doing at this moment. I know you're sleeping! But.. Nevermind, just wondering what you were doing before you went to bed. O levels are coming, i know you are gonna mug so hard! :( im not being stupid here but i hope you would give yourself a break once in a while. Let go of studies, enjoy yourself.
Oh yeah! One more wish, i hope to watch MV from BB with you, so much, they are cool people:P
I know you love to watch them, last time i was retarded. Haha, i dont know whats wrong with korean singer, why did i hated them so much? :x
Not anymore, maybe we could even sing korean songs together! LOL! Although i would suck, i know it would be fun and nice hearing you sing them! Oh you once promised to sing for me too :(
Haha!
Too bad for me. BOOOOOOOOO! :(
So yeah i been thinking abt you lately (actually for the past 1 whole yr!) LOL.
And hi-5! i remembered you like F1 races and of cus L.Hamilton! :D
Heehee.
Please i would never forget anything abt you, ask me, i remembered them all.
And sadly, you will go to NP and mass comm after olvls.
This is a very very sad thing for me:(
I will have 0.01% chance of seeing you:S
Boooo again for me. Lols.
Wow, its mid-autum! And i smsed you!:D *Cheer* for the courage:P
And you replied! *Cheer* for i dont know, im happy. Lol.
Too bad this yr we didnt light any candle together. But hey, i did one for you!:D
Oh btw, my art sucks so errr. yeah, not nice:x But i know you would be glad if you saw it!:D Heehee. I took photos too. HAHA, please do not laugh:P
:D:D:D
Oh my 1000 cranes is not coming up fast!:(
I hope i can pass it to you before DEC.
But its not easy! :(
1Crane takes abt 10mins! :(
I need 10000mins! OMG, I still doing, almost 200 now :( Im slow:(
But i will try my best! My holidays are here, but im working, so i wont have time.
But sat and sun i shall do crane the whole day :D
I wont get bored, i will entertain myself, i know you wont be happy if i do something the whole day and not letting myself have enough space to move abt. Right?
Aw, i played basketball too much last time, even neglected you, wtb man!:S
So dumb!:(
Ok still loading the pictures.. Cool done:D
I really want you to know, i love you as much as last time, even more.
Nt for looks, your character.
Maybe you have changed, i dont know. But it doesnt matter.
Smile like you always do.
With love, Wilson.
16(:
