Saturday, February 20, 2010 ; 2:21 AM?
SMILE(:
why? Why when i was about to let you go, you appear in my dreams again and again and made me believe it was real.
I even asked myself, fuck, i know its fake, i must be dreaming. You say no, you told me im not dreaming, its real, you've forgiven me.
I asked you again, you assure me i wasnt dreaming, it was read, u hit me on the hand, it was painful. I tot for a sec i really wasnt dreaming.
Its a dream of course.
I knew it from the start but still it seemed so real.
Sigh. Dont know why is this happening.
I went to bury everything we once shared. I tot i can forget you this way.
I deleted all your photos in my phone.
I buried all the things in somewhere really hard to find.
I tried my best not to think of you.
But for 2night in a row, you appear in my dreams and gives myself a tight slap on my face like telling me i will never be able to forget you.
Of course i dont want to forget you if i had a choice, but i dont.
I feel that leaving you alone, letting you go is the best solution before you hate me even more.
I can't believe i'm actually digging a hole and burying our stuff away.
The next time you appear in front of me, i'll know its a dream.
I hope you'll be happy.
16(:
